Thank you for being here–present with these words. I’ve made my first YouTube video, where I talk through several points about cosmology, cosmograms, Christ consciousness, and the present autumn equinox. It took me several tries with uploading this video, so I hope you can view it and gain something from it.
For this equinox, I wanted to focus on tracing–questioning which vines are we following and are they fruitful for our journey and constant transformation? As just the sun rises and falls around the cosmogram, Libra season is a time to graph the fall of the Ego into the eternal depths of the Other/the Spirit. I’ve pulled a meditative tarot draw while reflecting on this equinox (This is from the Hoodoo Tarot Deck):
In the cards, the main energy is the ten of baskets, a happy grill master and his family including dandelion-infused moonshine. The dandelion speaks of maintaining Joy through the upkeep of self-reflection. Again, it’s important to examine the sun (our ego) in its fallen state–even if you’re only looking at the reflection. Stability and the laying down of burdens come through reflection. The two of baskets here speaks of gaps of faith, or connections of that past that didn’t serve us, and may still be affecting us. The eight of sticks pictures a Hoodoo woman peeling lightning struck wood from a tree–now is the time for illumination, an electric peek into our own darkness, a trailing of the vines and entanglements that we may have normalized. A recognition of power. The ace of sticks represents an Indian Mound –consciousness over matter–the coming together of our true source. Our looking into the depths of ourselves, tracing the vines of our connection, flourishes the growth we need during the Now.
Saturn is currently transiting through Capricorn, nice and settled in its home sign. For the first time in my lifetime, Saturn will be in the exact place it was when I was born, in 7 degrees Capricorn. Luckily! For me, I will experience Saturn scrubbing past 7 degrees Capricorn a total of 3 times over the next few months due to Saturn retrograding (April 17th- Sept 6th). Despite all the horror stories said about one’s Saturn’s return, I’m constantly learning and relearning the heavenly bodies’ harmonious (or disharmonious) affect on my life, and I see how Saturn is really about getting to the bare essence of things.
According to vibrational astrologist and YouTuber “Astrology Software“, Saturn is more malefic in transits than in the natal chart. Since the goals of this planet are to remove all superficial things, stripping away all that is not important for one’s achievements. Saturn rules the bones, which are inorganic material that brings structure to our bodies and that lasts past death. Bones hold memory and principles of what once was, so this is why certain astrologers say that Saturn holds karma, as the keeper of time and life cycles. Since Saturn holds the cycles of life, the planet knows how we should spend our time and what goals we should strive to accomplish. Especially as Saturn transits Capricorn, its energy may seem somewhat detached, as Saturn ignores any emotional response that may hinder progress to a fully integrated self, a self that is external awareness of the weight of time and the internal call of building foundational legacy. This is why Saturn may seem harsher in transits because he acts as a stripping agent that currently restricts, or takes away, things that no longer serve one’s highest good.
Saturn is exalted in Libra, and as a Libra Sun with a Libra Mars, I know Saturn…on a personal, legalistic level. Libra rules the domain of contracts, unions, and law, as seen by the balancing scales of justice that is the sign’s glyph (⚖️). The energy of Libra unbiasedly weighs both the good and the bad in all things, naturally balancing the burdens and the pleasantries of energies with social agility, prowess, and mental fortitude. It makes sense that Saturn is exalted in Libra because, at the end of the day, Saturn wants the most balanced, smoothly functioning life possible for all of us. Saturn, then, acts as the judge in the courtroom who keeps records of our actions in this life as well as previous ones.
It has definitely felt like I’ve grown up as I approach my Saturn’s return. At the (ripened) age of 28, I sense Saturn’s reach on my bones and my relationships, bringing to mind all that must be tested and shaped or else ousted in pursuit of high structure and character. Since Capricorn lies within my 4th house, it has been a deeply ancestral experience for me to know who I am and to accept the spiritual responsibilities I have in this lifetime while upholding traditional customs of the ones who came before me. Saturn connects with my legalistic Libra sensibilities by materially responding to my internal thoughts…. my negative thinking manifests as quickly as my positive thinking because I’m learning the weight of my principles. Saturn works in a material manner to teach immaterial wisdom that structures our very existence.
Important Current Transit(s):
One of the most important transits I see at the moment is Saturn semi-square Jupiter. A semi-square is a 45-degree angle, similar to a 90-degree square aspect. In my experience, semi-squares can be a much harsher block than squares because semi-squares manifest as material events in our lives. This aspect presents deep, internal blocks that must be dealt with externally. So, with Jupiter currently semi-squaring Saturn, expansion and restriction are in a tense environment with one another. Once balance between growth and removal is realized, then this tension can transform into great achievements, as the ancient knowledge of Saturn gives wisdom to the new expansions of Jupiter. Where can you be more restricted, and how can that frugality lead to a more expansive future? Pisces season teaches us how to flow with the currents of multiple extremities, and will help us reconcile these energies more intuitively.
The stillness that comes
By gazing at crumbling leaves, trees, and limbs
In the soiled treasure of mother earthing
Whispers gently with certainty
That I my self
The soul with uprooted, upchanging chaos
Can be planted once again.
The way the trees go every whichaway
Crooked with purpose and presence
Reaching claws first out of the creating One
Births in my deeper parts
The wisdom of my material body,
My vessel that flows, bulges, jigs, trembles,
My staying power.
Sunlight liquid spilling over all that is present,
Shining on and in, one and inside
Every god created thing that dares to die and become
Reminds me with thick memories of
The warm between my thighs made from moving
Bringing Light to the dim spots caused from friction.
I am the light, the still, the dark parts of the sun.
Libra season always comes in like a mental breath of fresh air. Connections become more laxed as we begin to recognize our social habits and the things that we should shut down and pick up as we balance rest and passion after the equinox. Being a libra has taught me many things about interaction with my environment because the energy is very atmospheric. It’s not just about connecting with people but it’s about the position of objects, the swaying of trees, the beauty of rolling clouds, the way the corners of a lover’s eyes crinkle when they smile- it’s about presence. Because I’ve come to the planet under a libra sun, imbalance is the very thing I must resist and revamp, as the vibrancy of atmospheric pressures could easily lead to disharmony.
I’ve come to see the energy in a way that mainstream astrology tends to exclude. And each solar return my experience is radically different. This year I see libra’s balance with the nodes of the moon as energetically significant. As we know, the sun doesn’t particularly enjoy transiting in this zodiac sign because it is the beginning of its death, autumn’s grip slowly sinks all warmth as this part of earth turns away from its fiery luminary. Libra energy is about the “other,” not the self/the sun, but about the things outside of the self, while seeing the self through the lens of the other, the expression, not the initiation, of growth. This season is the sun’s last inhalation before its energetic rest. Libra is the initial knowledge of the intimacy and beauty of release and transformation.
Since libra is about balance, the sun is beginning its fall in this sign, but the north node of the moon is rolling about in leo. Here is the balance, the mirror of the soul. This node represents one’s soul path, away from the karmic cycles of past lives, and onward to territories and internal space that the soul has never experienced. Because the north node of the moon is in leo currently, our destiny is in the light or in accessible conscious awareness while the sun transits toward the dark, or the depths of the inner self. So, during this particular libra season, the sun and the north node are functioning as a mirror of the soul, striking balance between past and future, death and rebirth, cacophony and symphony.
This year has been drastically transformative for me on many fronts. I have begun a shamanistic journey led by Reverend Joyce of livingjoyfulnow, and I have connected to my dark and light realms in ways I would have never imagined. Being a shaman awakens one to see the things that are in plain sight, things that seem to have been hidden before but are now brought into conscious awareness. The atmosphere becomes enlivened with meaning and patterns that mirror the soul. I feel that I can explore the darkness and light of the balance without fear, a trait that the libra must acquire to find true harmony. All in all, this energy is just that: bringing light to every dark place in your being without fear, without judgment, without hatred. To simply look at the self and to know peace are the lessons that the setting sun brings to mind.
The card pull for this post is: Nebula
This card speaks directly to the darkness of the soul that the libra sun wants you to acknowledge. Made from dust, hydrogen, helium, and remnants of supernova explosion, the nebula is literally the growth after a storm, the incubation of newness and creativity. The same duality that exists in this season is found in nebulous creativity: a dark womb of beginning and the intelligent light of intentional growth. Now is the time to stock up for the journey ahead, as you look into the mirror to see youself as present and sentient and worthy of serenity. From the depths, hope bursts forth, just like a volcanic overflow of being.
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